don't cry

sometimes, we feel that people around us don't care with us, so do i
they are too busy with their business, and come to if they need me.
i just wanna be heard, and make me strong in every problem that i got, but they don't. i hate them

i call it friendship

may be people think that friend is someone who stay beside you when you sad or every time you need. even one who always with you every single time in your life, to help, accompany and listen to you.
according to me. friend is anything that have a meaning to you. a place that you can share with.
and to release that you need very very long time even you will release it when it/ them go.
so, you need to be close with anything around you, may be it will become your friend.
it's a thing called friendship

l.o.v.e

that simple word is amazing, dear.
it make people happy, sad, jealous, cry, and smile.
you know what? last night one of my friend told my 'bout his girlfriend that falling in love with other boy. he was crying.
on the other side, my close friend told me that he is falling in love. he always laugh like insane people in the street
kwkwkwk.
what about me? i got the real love every time of my life. from Allah, my parent, my family, friend.
i makes me strong enough to face the future.

feel better??

hmm...
i back my diary.
today, i told the truth to him. i though i will get better after that, but, he was so angry with me that make me uncomfortable. i hate it.
sometimes, be honest is so difficult, but i want to do it. i know this risk before, while it's still hurt.
will i feel better?

no need time out for a while

hhfftt...
took a breath and got off every problems made me feel better.
20 years ago i was nothing, but now, i wanna be the best one for my beloved people, mom, daddy, teacher, lecturer, and my crazy friends, NK 1. they are coloring my life, sad, angry, happy, feel crazy, stupid, but i love them. i don't know, how come?
20 years ago, i've done nothing, but now i wanna do something better.
20 years ago, i know nothing, but now i know that God always give me the best..
Alhamdulillaah..

the last n the worst day

what will you do, when you realize that you have been waiting for nothing? angry? disappointed?? it's hurt.

complicated day...

 this morning i made new record for my self..
i can speak clearly in front of my friends, but in the afternoon i got a small problem with them. actually, not a problem , just misunderstanding between us..
i think we should make a clarification about it because it's annoying me..
this evening become worse because of an earthquake, i am afraid, something bad will be happened. Oh, God.. help us..
:( :(

what a busy day !!

hfftt...
i hate these days, those are full of assignment. every subject has so many homework that should have been finished in a week, and make my own daily journal like this. also i have to do household ; washing the dishes,  iron, and cooking food every day
however, i need to take a rest, have a relax time, go sopping or do something fun with my friend or family. no time for it, unfortunately :(
wish i have more spirit for tomorrow. fighting!!!!